Change

In just two weeks I'll be moving into a dorm. This is a first for me, even though I've been in college for two years now. All the what-ifs attack me all the time; what if my roommate and I don't get along, what if I don't like it, what if there are too many distractions, what if I just plain hate it? I really have no idea what to expect.
A couple days ago I was freaking out about how to pay for school in time. I didn't have the money, and the deadline was approaching fast. I didn't know what to do. Today, I have peace that goes beyond understanding. I still don't have all the money, and I can't pay for the whole semester. But I have enough. I always have enough. I may not have all I think I need, and I definitely can't see what's coming in the future. But I have enough for now. God has always given me that.
Things still attack me, like fear and anxiety, but when I calm down enough to listen and remember, I remember that I have the peace I need. It's always there, I just don't always see it past my whining and struggling and claim it as my own.
So, dorm life, here I come. Give me your best shot, 'cause I'm on the winning Team.